Smile for the world to see

wow... when was the last time u suddenly felt your heart take a huge leap to your throat and remained stuck there, hanging around at your chest area, almost as if it's trying to keep your lungs from doing it's job?

and you're honestly becoming increasingly breathless as u feel that lump inching its way up and at the same time growing larger, filling up whatever space there is in between that and ur lungs?

and everything suddenly becomes a blur and silence becomes deafening?

I just did.

maybe it's all for the better. everything happens for a reason so i should smile and the world will smile with me...

will post pix of soi, jiaqi and me in our highly eventful yearly one night in beijing later... too emo to do shit..