sometimes u can't make it on your own...

so here I am, just got back from a nice little get-together at gracia and kai's place with elissa, normie, val and my darling. shit i'm so tired. silly bangkok turn this morning and this cny has been pretty crazy. in fact, since the time adrian got back, in fact, i think it's the entire month, it's been pretty crazy. crazy fun, crazy shit, crazy god-knows-what. i'm happy. i'm contented. i'm in bliss.

anywayz, been a while since i wrote something, because of the craziness that's been going on. but well... as i was telling pris, why can't our lives be as simple as our parents'? like.. i'm sure when they were at our age at that time, they were already married, prolly pushing a freaking pram around and cleaning baby poop up into the wee hours of the morning. but they were happy, weren't they? i'm sure they were also juggling parenthood with adulthood. afterall, they HAD to earn enough money to get a roof over their heads, food for their bellies and still provide for parents and blah blah blah... they had all these to juggle with and yet, life was fulfilling.

i see us, at this age, losing people we love, taking others for granted, learning who we are or what we want, fighting over who's right and wrong, we are in the midst of fighting for something that i can't quite put my finger to. is it really happiness? coz what exactly makes us happy, now? is it monetary comfort? what exactly defines what's comfortable anyway?

i just feel that sometimes, we lose the ability to see the real things around us. so what if i've learnt to protect myself from getting hurt? won't i then also lose the ability to feel the hurt others are going through? worst, won't i become the one that strikes first?

i wish life was simpler, especially for those around me who have gone through hell and back with me. i wish i could make it all go away.

i guess in a way, i'm happy where i am now. with all the shit going around, i'm pretty sure i'll be in similar shit if not for him. i'm actually sane and sober. i guess for me, life IS simply living it and sharing it.

on a lighter note, got a little something-something for our 1st month anniversary (yes, gosh, it's been a freakin month!!)

in case you're wondering, the meaning behind these 99 rocher roses is the the first time we met, yes, at the wedding, the first task i made the guys do was to eat the rocher and fold roses for the bride. and he was one of those who just stood around coz he didn't know how to fold one. ahaha!~

awww.. *blush*