another lazy sunday afternoon

ahhh.. it's nice to finally get a day of rest after slogging at work till 11.30pm for the past 3 nites... the event's finally over so hopefully everything will be better now.

i'm sitting at a little cafe less than 100m away from my house coz there's free internet, fresh air, sunlight for my babies and food. nice way to spend a sunday afternoon since being cooped up at home with the girls will prolly drive me nuts. peter's in calgary so i'm here to guard the fort on my own. yawns....

sometimes i feel like i'm in a bit of a shotgun situation... yes i love the girls, but when they drive me crazy, i kinda regret having them. like.. people come to taiwan and enjoy the nightlife here. the clubs, the shopping, the food and i'm stuck at home or in the office and when people ask if i wanna go out, my first concern is.. who's gonna take care of the girls.. and when i'm out...i'll think of getting home quickly coz i'm afraid of leaving them alone for too long. i dunno if i'm ready for that kinda commitment. sigh...

and this is scary coz its making me scared of the responsibilities of having to take care of someone else. what if i get scared coz this experience is so traumatising that i might be put off having dogs or kids for good. then how???

i miss the carefreeness and the lack of responsibility-ness. hah... the gang's in hanoi now and no one's online. sigh.. i'm sooo bored!!!!!!!

baby come bk quick!!!!!!!!!

okok.. i'm running out of things to say. i'm brandy's chewing bone and whisky's licking.. erm.. toy.. if only they are well enough to play with each other then i can be free of scratches. sometimes i wish i had the irresponsibile life i had back without the exploits of course... sometimes lah..