stuck in a moment

since the last post, i've been highly constipated and about to lose hope. I know, this isn't the best time to be looking for a job, nor is it the best time to be picky about a job. yes.. i turned it down in the belief and hope that i deserve and should be getting alot more than what they offered.. so... here i am.. waiting for the next call or email that some future smart ass employer will give me.

sigh...

the day is spent online sending resumes, surfing website for suitable job openings, hospitals and doggy jail.. nothing takes my mind of the fact that i'm sitting at home everyday without any income coming my way. what's gonna happen once my savings run out? and just the thought of that makes me cringe... all the hard earned money i saved up is just disappearing slowly... yet i can't even be allowed to smoke without having to seek permission for the only most direct gratification i can have.

sigh...

i get up every morning to a disappointing empty inbox.
i go to sleep every nite after emptying a redundant inbox.

i really really really need a smoke. or a break... i need a fucking job and a teevee and a life!! thank gawd the shipment's arriving tomorrow.. i'm going crazy within these 4 walls.

gawd it's not even 8am...

And if the night runs over
And if the day wont last
And if our way should falter
Along the stony pass
Its just a moment
This time will pass