back to english.. finally..

oh! haha! apparently all i had to do to change my language back to english was a click of a button away. but because the entire blogsite was in mandarin, i never realised the option was there. haha! ditz moment 101.. but hey, i got my english settings back! yay!!!

am currently (still) working on my silly resume that's driving me nuts. first i've got to find the appropriate job description, phrase it nicely, then figure out how to translate the entire blardy thing. which reminds me, i need to buy a freaking english-chinese dictionary the next time i'm in taiwan.

granddad's finally regained consciousness this morning and seems he recognises faces as well. according to the ct scan they did for him the nite he got admitted, his brain's pretty mangled up so... i guess... well... count down begins... and i've got to make an effort to be there as often as i can. looking at him reminds me of how i lost gonggong and mama... never fails to make me tear. and i never knew, but apparently he's english name is james.

just out of pure curiousity... 如果一個人很在乎朋友和家人的看法，很從事他們怎麼想，一切都要讓別人高幸就好，自己怎麼能真的開心？那一個人要讓多少步，聽從多少次，才算夠了，才會為自己想呢？如果愛一個朋友或家人都不同意的人，你會不會不關別人的想法，每天要吵要鬧也要去愛那個人，然後讓時間證明一切？

i always thought that one of the most impt hurdle my potential whoever has to go through are my friends. that if they don't click, then... it's out of the question. in fact, more important to have my friends approve than my family approve coz my family has always been pretty open and easy-going. but i've also come to realise that i'm the one ultimately that's gotta approve of whoever, myself. i guess using friend's approval is just an excuse for saying yes or no, rite?

好相每個人都看他不順眼，可是我還是很喜歡很喜歡，大家也拿我沒辦法。可是如果自己也不是說很喜歡那個人，朋友再怎麼喜歡，我還是會找結口分手。

so my point is this. i admire people around me who have taken that bold step of being with someone they love despite the lack of support. coz ultimately i believe that they will come around and see the person for who he or she is. i'm sorry if i've ever made anyone feel like i didn't approve of their relationship. i must've had my reasons but hey.. who am i to say anything? coz at the end of the day, the one who's happy, the one who's in the relationship, the one who ultimately ends up marrying the person is you, not me, not ur friends, nor ur family.

and as long as you're happy. that's what matters. but of course if shit hits the fan, i'll help to clean it up. i'm just being practical coz shit happens whether u like it or not...

and that's what my friends and family tell me all the time anywayz...

勇敢的去愛吧！！！！*exclaims to the... er... world* (ooh i love that i'm getting a hang of this chinese thingy)