life after jul

life, as it may seem, is pretty okay for now.
no more working till 5am only to head to work at 9.30am the.. erm.. i can't say next day, can i? um.. i guess not when i step out of the office to bright daylight and leave home to work in the same brightness.... life sucked last month.

and because of all the shit that culminated last month, the boss doesn't quite trust me anymore. and i don't quite trust myself that much anymore. it's like... i feel like i can't do anything without his consent and everything i do, he definately has something to say. fuck man, i can't work in an environment like this... i .. can't.

then came the long looong awaited trip back to sg when i finally was able to let loose (after being woken up twice by the company back in taipei... having to stay at home a whole day doing work when i'm on 'leave' and having everyone tell me in my face to stop thinking about work), letting loose was fun and a much much need relief to all the shit that was going on. i see my friends, the big hugs, the smoke breaks.. the crazy crazy things we do reminds me of what i miss... and i miss everyone sooo much. kinda makes me wanna stay put in sg and just disappear from work. but of course, i'm more responsible than that... so..

i decide with jenn and val to kinda start on a little wedding planning/events company. sugar and spice (which unfortunately was already taken.. fuckers...) and now we're still deliberating on what to name the company. but with us all having full time jobs now (unfortunately for me), the plan is to continue planning and see where things go after 2 yrs... i'm giving us 2 yrs.. so we have 2 yrs to work on portfolio so people, if u wanna get married, do so in the next two yrs and all u gotta do is give us the experience, testimonials, pictures and alot of angbaos..

then.... news came from nicky that Taiwan Journal (english based mag) is looking for a copy editor. i hoping to give it a shot and see how it goes... but the interview process seems scary so... ahhhh.. i really dunno if i'm up to it. *minor freaking out moment*

all these decisions and thoughts and plan whilst still in a 1 yr contract that expires in feb09, but then again, i guess if i'm really unhappy, and they really can't gimme either money or a proper visa or a life, then wtf rite? even if i continue living here... i believe being an english teacher can help with the finances more than what this job pays. so... watever... i prefer being happy..

if i'm poor but have loads of time on my hands for myself.. i'm good
if i'm rich but have no time whatsoever, at least, i'm rich..
right now, i'm none of the above. so screw the fucking contract.

that said, if i dun get any other job within the next i dunno how long, then i'll happily finish my contract, fuck off and hope that the man earns enough money for me to concentrate on honing my pole dancing skills and earn money doing just that and wedding planning.

hooowww abbbouutt thhhattt~!

i refuse to leave office later than 9pm. methinks he's taking it for granted that my colleague and i are practically living in the office. i refuse to live in unhappiness and fear. fuck man.. if i wanted that life, i'd have continued working in sg. maybe sg might even have been better..

ah welll ... me hungry.. me needs to eat...

cheerios!~