Rantings from Istanbul
Dear Blory...
Am in freaking cold Istanbul now. Was in Dubai yesterday and will be going back to dubai on the 4th before heading back to sg on 6 jan.
2005 hasn't started out the way i wanted it to.
I just heard from Louis, who heard from Melissa, that the guys are sorta like predicting that we can only last 6 months. I'm pretty pissed because of a couple of reasons. Firstly, come on, there's a reason why we say we're still working and ironing things out. We're not even officially together so why did they have to put an expiry date on us?
Secondly, fine if there's a stupid prediction or bet or whatever fuck shit... but WHY THE FUCK DID THEY HAVE TO TELL MELISSA ABOUT IT?!~~~!! Talk about the ultimate betrayal? I've never felt so disappointed in my friends before. I mean... it's okay if they keep it among themselves. Telling Melissa is just like telling the enemy that "hey, they can't hold out for long". I don't give a fuck shit about how long we can last coz like i said before, if it's good, it's good. If it's not, it's not. We'll just move on.
Anyway, utterly disappointed in my friends, whoever it was who were involved in the discussion or worst still, whoever it was that told that thing. Utterly disappointed in loving. Utterly disappointed in love and everything else that comes with it. I'm tired of loving.
Hope someday I'll find someone who loves me more than i do him or show me what it means to be loved and romanced again. Maybe then I'll start believing it can exist. Until then, I don't want to love anyone or anything anymore.
Hmm.. maybe I'll spend birthday weekend alone this yr for a change. So much for freaking happy 2005.
Am in freaking cold Istanbul now. Was in Dubai yesterday and will be going back to dubai on the 4th before heading back to sg on 6 jan.
2005 hasn't started out the way i wanted it to.
I just heard from Louis, who heard from Melissa, that the guys are sorta like predicting that we can only last 6 months. I'm pretty pissed because of a couple of reasons. Firstly, come on, there's a reason why we say we're still working and ironing things out. We're not even officially together so why did they have to put an expiry date on us?
Secondly, fine if there's a stupid prediction or bet or whatever fuck shit... but WHY THE FUCK DID THEY HAVE TO TELL MELISSA ABOUT IT?!~~~!! Talk about the ultimate betrayal? I've never felt so disappointed in my friends before. I mean... it's okay if they keep it among themselves. Telling Melissa is just like telling the enemy that "hey, they can't hold out for long". I don't give a fuck shit about how long we can last coz like i said before, if it's good, it's good. If it's not, it's not. We'll just move on.
Anyway, utterly disappointed in my friends, whoever it was who were involved in the discussion or worst still, whoever it was that told that thing. Utterly disappointed in loving. Utterly disappointed in love and everything else that comes with it. I'm tired of loving.
Hope someday I'll find someone who loves me more than i do him or show me what it means to be loved and romanced again. Maybe then I'll start believing it can exist. Until then, I don't want to love anyone or anything anymore.
Hmm.. maybe I'll spend birthday weekend alone this yr for a change. So much for freaking happy 2005.
posted by ah_bu @ 2:08 AM
7 Comments:
At 4:49 AM ,
Anonymous said...
told ya to slap the muthaphucking whore and show her who's boss oready. i can do it for ya if i see her... have never slapped a woman in my life b4, she could be the first and last.
-normie
At 4:34 PM ,
Anonymous said...
Babe, i help u slap la... unlike normie, i've prior experience in slapping pple...
And whoever it was that told that slut that u guys will only last 6 mths... can go eat shit also la... was prob just speculation on that person's part....
Ladidadida.......;-p
At 8:35 PM ,
Anonymous said...
What the fuck? Some friends u have... Pity u... U really gotta leave this group of friends.. I'm sure there's still others who cares abt u..
At 1:47 AM ,
Anonymous said...
who the fcuk are you to judge! muthaphucker, dare to post but never leave a fcuking name behind... i hope you have a fcuking tsunami in ur blardy arsehole.
-normie
At 2:08 AM ,
Anonymous said...
Hey sweetie,
We cannot stop gossip, and we cannot stop what others have to say behind our backs. Basically, I'm sure the friends who put the expiry date on whatever that didn't even happen (yet) have no ill intentions.
And this melissa woman, though i do not know who she is, she is only an enemy if you make her one. She isn't an enemy to your friends, i guess. And if your friends don't treat her like an enemy (like you do), it doesn't make them less worthy of your friendship. Being upset over something like this only adds glee to your "enemy".
In love, there is no right or wrong. There is also good timing and bad timing, smart choices and stupid choices. Instead of focussing all on the targetted *bitch*, why not focus on the person who allowed it to happen?
It is not the tsunami that killed many. It's the failure to see the signs that did.
Hugs, and be strong.
Sometimes, letting go is better than holding on helplessly. Because holding on helplessly drains, tires, saddens. You deserve better. You deserve more.
*66*
At 2:49 AM ,
Anonymous said...
Hey all...
thanks for the support. maybe i overeacted a little but honestly, it was a blow when i heard what i heard.
Anyway, i dun wanna care anymore (i know i say this ALL the time)... so I'm trying okay?
btw, can the other anonymous person and *66* lemme know who u are? would just be nice to know.
-di
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