another one joins the club!

Girly nites are always fun... a good time to catch up with the ones that matter, a time to share what's been going on with each other, and a time to just be goofy and be yourself.

good friend of mine's joining the club with the ring.. and i'm so happy for her. been through shit and tough times in recent years and things are finally settling down. albeit in a sorta whirlwind sorta way, but hey, being in love, doing crazy things and living on the edge is what makes life interesting rite? :)

love truly transforms all skeptics and i honestly believe that someway somehow, things will always work itself out. you just gotta hang in there.

i'm hoping that my other girly can find this crazy silly bliss soon. heh... i know it'll happen, and it's always when you least expect it. i hope he'll knock her off her feet and make sure she's safe whilst not on her feet. haha..

so yea... everything changes... loving every moment of it!!

xoxo girlies!!!

how to stay afloat...

things seem to be going well... but i dunno..

maybe a nice romantic, just us day would've been nice enough, but apparently it's not... a nothing-else-is-planned-so-we-can-rest-and-spend-time-doing-things-together day turned into a silent house with just the sound of the teevee in the background. i dun even feel like being in the same room without wanting to scream... and i am screaming... inside.

what on earth did i do or say wrong?

anyways.... i'm worried about the studio... we're getting gigs and stuff, students etc.. so much so that the studio biz seems to have taken a backseat to what our main biz was suppose to be. maybe we should just do without the studio, save some money with the construction of the booth and concentrate on the gigging aspect of the biz...

or maybe we can come up with some form of partnership with some other studio and do more of a off-site producer/editing/recording engineer. i dunno...

are we losing focus on the things that should matter?

so yea... things seem to be going well... good moments... but i don't really quite know what's going on underneath it all. just floating... and wondering how we can keep it that way... and hope no current too strong comes this way..

oh but then again, i like riding waves.. oh well, bring it..

random

howdy!

brandy's currently lying on my lap and whiskey's trying to hump her... these two crazy bitches are gonna go for doggie run later in the park! yay!!! thanks to my dear father-in-law who's a saint driving us around and driving the girls so they can go play.. methinks he's making up for the lack of grandchildren at this point.. haaaa....

work's been pretty okay, there's a new recording project coming up and the man's gonna be performing at a regular place on wed nites so that's more income! but the more the merrier as usual.. so it's still work work and getting more work! i hope he doesn't faint or ... i dunno... lose his mind..

still can't seem to find that silly woman who owes us money... fucking retard... that moron's apparently selling insurance... oh gawd i pity whoever her clients are.. playing the "i'm-so-poor-thing-i-got-no-money" card does not work on me... stupid bitch. because of her our finances are in a mess. FUCKING RETARD!!!! i fucking hate you!!!!!

so yea.. the money coming in just doesn't stay in and i just wish this financial nightmare will be over soon. hopefully we can pay off all our debts before we leave for austria... or max at the end of the year so that everything that comes in after that will be INCOME.

fucking shithead sophia... fuck you understand???

okay back to zen mode...

imma go cook lunch now... :P

looking back on 2011's first 1/4

omg.. either the year's passing really fast, or... no, the year's passing really fast. it's already april! well, 1st quarter done, been a pretty ok one so am just gonna keep this up.

it's been crazy around the world and i wonder if our next generation will be able to witness half its madness. i kinda feel blessed to be in living in this lifetime though, i mean, alot of sadness and suffering that really makes me think about what is important to me. like... truly impt...

i always seem broke but i'm still getting fat so i can't be that broke, compared to those suffering without a roof over their heads, or wondering where their next meal will be coming from, or worst, where their loved ones are or if they're even alive. so i wun complain anymore.

i always stress myself up when jobs dun seem to be coming in or that i'm not climbing up the corporate ladder that my friends are climbing, but compared to those that dun have jobs, can't have jobs or are sick and tired of their jobs sucking away their lives but can't do anything about it, methinks i'm quite blessed to have a job i really love and to actually call my own. hard work it is, but nothing comes easy, so i wun complain anymore.

i always feel trapped when i wanna enjoy myself, going wherever, drinking whenever but i have responsibilities as a wife and mother (to my dogs), and sometimes i wonder why i tie myself down to these... but when i look back on the irresponsible lifestyle i had and the mistakes i've made, i thank God for giving me the love of my life and the two bitches. they are the ones that make sure i end the day with a smile and a sigh of contentment just by being themselves, so i wun complain anymore.

i think i'm okay... baby, if you ever read this, i think we're okay... *smiles*

exactly what's engraved in our little ring of dedication, responsibility and love to each other...

we're livin on a prayer everyday and 愛 is just 很簡單 when you have someone with you every step of the way... so i wun complain anymore..

Happy Wabbit Year!!~~!!~

Business is up and running... yay!!!

Now that THAT big hurdle is done, here comes the bigger hurdle.. getting business eh?? sigh... never owned my own company, but this is a damn good challenge and if i've been putting in 100% in all my other jobs, time to triple that energy and get me some dough...

that said... this year has been pretty alright, for now... (i'm not gonna jinx it since it's only feb). some ups and some minor minor downs that's only teaching me to be stronger so that's good.

some little mini wabbit goals that i'm gonna try to hop towards by the end of the year includes...

1) getting out of debts by june

2) staying in the black and making profits by end of the year

3) LOSE 5 (*(&^%$ing kgs by may

4) finalise home issues by june

5) MORE GIGS!!!!!

hokay!! tomorrow's a new beginning... end of crazy-eating-and-drinking cny weekend.

finally...

1.5 more days...

to the end of this dreaded year... i can't wait for 2011, that's assuming that 2011 will bring about better times.

the studio is still not done and stupid incompetent people are delaying the progress and there's nothing i can do about it coz everyone's just fucking uncontactable.

and i'm down with a bad flu.. just 1.5 days before 2010 ends and something MUST make me feel like shit.

omg... kill me now...

just needed to let it out...

and yes, it's been a looong while.

While it's been a very interesting rollercoaster ride of a year, nothing bugs me more than recent happenings between friends.

it's sad when people wait till matters are 'unsalvagable' to start speaking up. and it's bugs me when people are still always stabbing each other in the back. why can't friends approach and clarify and you know.. stab in the front if you are so adamant that you are right instead of being so .... hmmm.. backstabbing?

people are entitled to their opinions and i'm fine with it. i have no right to say who's right or wrong, but i do believe that before one starts pointing fingers at others just to feel better about themselves, look at yourself in the mirror first.

who's a better friend? one who is plain and simply a friend, who tells you to shaddup when you should, tells you to buck up when you're slacking, tells you you're fucking wrong when you are and accepts you for whatever you are?

or someone who sugarcoats words, treading carefully as if there's a hidden agenda in everything they say?

sure they make you feel good, and you can go through life thinking you're all right and yes, you might just go through life thinking you're really alright and that everyone else is wrong... does that teach you to be a better person? guess no... coz you dun fall and you dun learn to get up.

i prolly sound like i'm whining, and i guess i am. but i'm sick of people drawing conclusions and assumptions without getting the facts right first. jumping to conclusions just make you look like a fucking kid at the end of the day.

okay... i'm done... c'est la vie..