a lil self indulgence..

Another one of em quizzie!!

diana, your celebrity look is the Romantic Look!

With the eyes of a Botticelli and the smile of a DaVinci, you're the latest embodiment of the Romantic Look. It's your fascinating combo of dreamy innocence and smoldering desire that always keeps 'em guessing. Your tender, inner nature comes out in the soft colors and flowing fabrics of your clothes. But just because you can pull off the pastel eye shadows, pouty glossed lips, and the wide-eyed look of a kitten, everyone knows that you're no angel. Once you slip into something sexy for the evening and dab a little fragrance behind the ear, you're capable of just about anything. Mysterious as a cat, you share the same romantic allure as Nicole Kidman, Penelope Cruz, and Andie MacDowell. And just like them, your sincere, inner beauty always manages to shine just as brightly as your striking appearance.

*meow*

Randomness

Just answered some 15 questions on an "Are You Fit To Commit" quzzie

Results >> diana, you're fit to commit because you know what you want

You don't need us to tell you that you're on the right track. A cool and confident person, you know what you want; now it's just a matter of finding it. Even more important, you know that love is about much more than what kind of clothes they wear or car they drive. And you're ready to make it work.You've gotten to a place where you are happy with your life, and you're ready to share it with someone special. So whether you've found them or are still looking, know that this time, you'll get what you want.

Now it's just finding... or deciding on one huh...

More pics on vegas (yes... VEGAS!!) as soon as i buy the freaking card reader.

strawberry toes and blood red nails

Just a post while i'm waiting for silly billy nails to dry so i can head to bed.

I'm tired... methinks I'll pack my bag tomorrow morning, which means i gotta wake up slightly earlier tomorrow.. later i mean.. prolly about.. 5am?? yep yep..

So many thoughts running through me head today. I'm suppose to be carefree and happy and alll but i realise i'm not quite exactly that. Maybe it's just me shutting whatever potential happiness that I might have - pun totally intended - by drinking and dancing it away.

So you ask, what fun or joy do i derive by clubbing. I say... it's really the company, knowing that nobody really bothers about whoever's dancing next to you except the friends you're with of course, and vice versa. Conversations, we have a few... not deep philosophical, religious, political stuff but stuff that kinda really matters to your heart - like how you're doing and are you happy and all. Ultimately, it's not about the job we're doing or how much we're earning... ultimately, as long as you go to bed everynite feeling contented with what happened in the past 12 or 18 hours (as long as you're awake), you're good to go. And it may seem like it's a total waste of time, but i do feel happier when i'm lost in the music, the beats, the dance and the intoxication. Excuses, reasons, sad, pathetic or watumacallit, it helps me sleep better. I may be cheating myself into feeling so peaceful everynite, but who cares.

Sometimes we get to a phase where we say, "i dunno what i want". Is it really because we dunno, or we know, but we can't bring ourselves to accept that fact? I guess deep down inside, we all have ideals, and that's really what we want. It's a matter of working towards that ideal to make it a reality, no?

"What ifs... should i... would i... could i.. but... but..." when all's said and done, I'll only have myself to blame. IF i miss out on someone out there who could make me happier. IF i only waited and not jumped to decisions. IF is a fucking irritating word coz it gives raise to hopes that, well, I dunno.. will or may eventually disappoint. "BUT WHAT IF?"... rite??

anywayz, methinks my nails are pretty alright for now. wash up and head to bed i shall. i dun think i do so good with quiet drinks coz it makes me think, which leads to things i dun quite wanna think about, which leads to moodiness.. like now. Hit me hard, drink and dance, at least i sleep straightaway without having to go through this mess in my head.

that's my problem lah... dun ask coz i dun wanna face it.

Just a thought...

Why do people love drinking so much??

... the intoxication
... feeling silly happy
... no inhibitions
... crashing
... people u meet
... blocks out memories

Why do people hate drinking so much??

... the intoxication
... feeling silly happy
... no inhibitions
... crashing
... people u meet
... blocks out memories

*hmmmm*

hey there, long time no see...

wow, it's been a while.... and judging from the next-to-nothing updates from the rest of the gang, everybody's either gotta be really busy, really caught up with things, or really just tired of talking about themselves anymore eh?

i really would've posted much sooner but have been looking for my silly digicam cable so i can upload my moscow pics. now, i have no pictures to upload (sorry cousin, heh). i can only blabber...

guys! we mush do drinks over dempsey soon!!! friday? vesak day, so i heard...

anywayz, things have been pretty rosy for me, nothing to complain about, happy with work, happy with new room, happy with.. alot of things, maybe that's why there's almost nothing to talk about anymore.

went out with an old friend coupla days ago and we had a nice chat. talked about how we've changed, and all that. asked if he changed, it's a nice way of putting it. still a kid but just more thoughtful. a thinking kid. asked if i thought i changed, well... physical aspects like actions and everything, yea, pretty much everything. emotionally, well... slightly more cynical but i think i'm still a freaking idealist *pui* ... mentally, hmm... think i have adopted the just-do-it mentality, come what may...

would we have made it if we got together then? would we still be friends like now, 7 yrs later? probably not, so everything happens for a reason. believe in that and i guess you'll not have any regrets. "it's nice to grow up together, but it's nicer to grow old together" hmmm.. food for thought. sometimes a lil break in between helps, eh? *winks to dearest part-time bfs 1 & 2 and all who've been through shit*

so anyways, that's that, methinks i'd still drop everything else though if you-know-who calls... such a sucker i tell u... "will i?"

"i'd rather be hopelessly in love and figure out a way to survive, than have all the means of survival in the world but not be in love" - idealistic me

We've got to hold on to what we've got
'Cause it doesn't make a difference if we make it or not.
We've got each other and that's a lot for love
We'll give it a shot.

- idealistic jon

off to land of the sunless *again* tonight. "hallo adrian! hallo ivan! hallo lynn! here i come!"