changes

I will be going off to amsterdam tonight and in a bid to save moolah, i'm gonna stick to internet and gym. And becaue i've made it black and white (okay, purple and pink), please people everytime u see me online, make sure i've either gone to the gym or tell me to 'shoo'. methinks i'll just bring one set of going out clothes, and lotsa sports bra. that'll leave me no choice, eh?

I spent a nite sleeping with mojo. heehee.. talk about being so close to someone who seem to just be right beside you but yet actually thousands of miles away. a 2D interactive image. less than 45cm apart but seperated by a dumb screen. and the only reason why i'd give in to sleep is that i can't keep my eyes open.

as much as i'm totally at peace with the fact that i'm quitting sq. the realisation that i'm gonna leave this comfort zone is freaking me out, just a little lah.. but still. i possibly wun have the cash to do regular facials, manicures (but i wun need them much anymore anywayz), going for drinks and effortlessly buying a round or two. no more afternoon drinks, sleeping in, going for drinks on weekday nites, the works. but i guess that isn't what matters anyways.

what really makes me a little nervous is the fact that should i actually take off to taipei to work, what am i suppose to tell my parents? since moving to normanton was already something. i hope my mum's blood pressure wun rocket. haha.. first things first, that's IF i do get a job in taipei lah. Nicky says it's damn easy.. sure, i could end up being a babysitter lor. but, no no, in all seriousness, i DO want to go overseas to work coz it's always been my dream to leave sg for a coupla yrs, to experience something else while working and if there's someone i wanna be with there. all the more reason to, rite?

kekeke.. okie okie.. i have effectively 3 months to do my portfolio, search for job in sg and taipei, formulate my pitch to my parents, save up enough moolah, plan my last uk trip and not screw up. i think should have enough time lah, hor...? it's funny how my life is suddenly spinning around at such a pace. I mean, i've wanted it to change but not at this rate lor! but oh well.. that's why i'm an advocate of the phrase, "be careful what you wish for".

hooo weeell.. what must happen, will happen and it's no use fighting so just gotta trust in the big Guy up there lah... okie methinks i should go get ready. oh oh!! i just bought a new book last nite while aly and i were shopping and waiting for char to get off work. it's called, ahem.."Slightly Bad Girls of the Bible - Flawed Women Loved by a Flawless God." Who wants to borrow? kekeke..

clicking "refresh"

good morning world!!!!! i slept a good 12 hours last nite and now, i'm super refreshed!! I feel like the part in Hairspray when the lead actress woke up and broke into a GOOD MORNING BALTIMORE song.. so.. ahem.. "good morning singapore (yuck)" lalalala...

hokay... crap crap.. well, reason why i'm so super tired is that my silly beijing flight got delayed due to a power surge (read:blackout) and basically, cockpit lost power. and because we were already on the runway, we had to wait for a new gate no, get towed back, and fixed. 3 hours later, after feeding the pax with juice, water, peanuts, biscuits and noodles, we were told to... go back to hotel coz problem cannot be rectified. that's 7pm. my flight was suppose to have taken off 4ish pm.

back at the hotel, we had no idea wat the plan was gonna be so nobody could really sleep well. and we only got the note ard 2 plus in the morning that our pick up is 7am. so yeap.. and we're operating.. and.. it's a full freaking load. argh...

and then.. it's work as per normal again (or so we thought) until we taxiied.. and taxiied.. and 2 hours later, we're still taxiing. yeap. again, flight got delayed coz we needed air traffic clearance and had to wait.. then there was a looong queue.. and then.. we had to change runway. PTUI!!! so pax who were already pissed.. got more sianz.. and while i feel their pain, i was too tired to bother. so a simple 5hr 30min flight becaue a super draggy overnite and thereafter 9 hrs flight! basket, never even hit 2.5 times.

ah well... work hard for the money, eh? it's not easy money lor!!!

and my entire week's schedule got screwed up. I guess the only good thing is i got taken off my colombo flight. heehee... yay!

methinks i've more or less come to a decision to quit in jan, take the rest of the month off (since i have been working since graduation and i'm tired) before looking for a job. (my last horriday!!!) as excited as i am about quitting and stepping outta my comfort zone and coming back to earth, i am also shit scared as hell lah!. the subsequent looking for jobs (anybody got lobang?) getting lesser pay, bringing work home, additional stress, looong working hours, no more overseas trips (!!!) sigh.. i wonder why i put myself through it. but i guess i've answered the question to myself and the million and one people who have asked me. i NEED to do something different and something that challenges me... and well, I guess i'm done with the past 3 yrs of discovering the world and myself. now's the time to start establishing and rooting myself, somewhere. so big bad world, here i come, again...

apart from that, i guess what i'm most happy about is the fact that i feel like i've just woken up from a super long sleep/nightmare/watchumacalit. the past 3 yrs, as fun and as entertaining and as crazy as it has been, i guess i lost myself and basically allowed myself to explore dark alleyways and do stupid things. i dun regret it... but i'm not proud of it.. it's more like a been there done that and now, i think i've been there enough and done that sufficiently. so yeap. i'm done. it's like.. clicking on the refresh button and reloading now.

so it's back to more resume writing, sending them out, interviews, getting nervous coz you dunno if you got the job, whatever whatever... so exciting!! so scary!! so ... ahhhh!!!! lucky i got a coupla weddings to keep me occupied in jan and feb. IF NOT, DIE. i hope i dun die of boredom while i'm job seeking though. i dun mind more freelance weddings though so.. erm.. keep em recommendations comin yea?

hokay lah... time to go out and start my day. have a grreeeaat day peeps!!

random updates and stuff

i love live music. i love listening to the bassist grooving along with the drummer. i love looking at the drummer and wondering in awe how he keeps to his beats and coordinate all four limps giving the music it's backbone. I love looking at the guitarist and how nimble his fingers are running up and down the strings, how fast they move and how accurate they are at getting the right string, right strumming at the right time. i love watching the keyboardist handle two keyboards, and have to know the equipment inside out to know what effects can enhance the music. of course, i love to listen to the lead singer sing coz.. ultimately, i'm still the sucker for guys who can sing... so... yah.. nuff said.

i was at hard rock last nite and they play Bohemian Rapsody!! can u just imagine how crazy i went?

went to Tanjong Pagar rd this afternoon to accompany a friend look for wedding gowns. here's some tips when you're spoilt for choice.

Methinks one of the best way to decide which place to go to, is how u click with the person working there. Like, if you walk into this particular shop and specify what you like.. eg.. full body lace, simple, for outdoor wedding, and the first piece they show u is NOT lace, NOT simple and NOT suitable for outdoor shit, i think u can just walk out. obviously the person isn't paying attention. and if you have to repeat ur instructions more than 3 times... u can walk out too. coz it means the person just doesn't get u or doesn't get what you're looking for.

another thing is... how they treat your wedding planner (ahem) or sister or whoever's there with you is very important too. sometimes i dun understand how they can ignore the person accompanying the bride-to-be. not smart coz... u dun gain rapport, the accompaning friend ain't gonna encourage you to get that gown. i mean, if you're smart, chatting up with the friend will encourage more walking around, more browsing which in turn leads to more.. choices and bingo! the bride might fall in love with just one of those pieces.

so dun ignore the bff.

hokay.. that's wedding gown shopping -101 tips from diana tan ah bu.

yeap.. hokay.. i'm super tired from the lack of sleep from taipei and back in sg so i'm gonna crash.. and it's wedding work work tomorrow!!

simple joys are when...

... you silently enjoy each other's company
... you share a favourite song being played by the band
... you wake up smiling at the same person every morning
... you are able to grab a beer/drink and just catch up
... you know you did something that made someone else's day
... you dream endless dreams together
... you dun have to say a word and you are understood
... you give a hug and it says more than anything u need to say
... you accomplish something and it's worth all the pain and effort
... you make a decision and feel at peace within
... you can smile and tell yourself that today was a good day even though u are dead tired
... you talk till the wee hours of the morning and just can't bear to hang up
... you know someone still loves you for all the shit you've done

*huge contented smiley sigh*

so anyways, this weekend has been ultra tiring but i'm feeling super highly achieved so that's good. the pole-aholics had a 2-day performance in conjunction with the SHAPE run and i effectively spent all my off days at rehearsals. my right armpit is burnt by pole grazing... ahem.. just, try to imagine.. and i'm bruised at my ribcage and shoulder. can't quite shake anyone's hands without feeling a strain on my right arm and my left calf hurts like crazy. but guess what... i LURVE it!!

the performance went well and biggie thanks to adrian and val for showing their support. haha.. damn shy lah..

i've been tasked to go LA to source for suitable costumes. i'm so excited for my next flight! *winks*

and thanks to joanna, i might get a new wedding client for next jan. seems like they want the kind of wedding that i lurve to do, ie, no boring hotel shit, so that's good. all i need is for them to agree and i can start work!

been thinking alot about what i wanna do. guess the good thing is that i can actually be very flexible and still do what i wanna do. it's not a matter of a blocked wall but more like a road junction. too many things i'd love to do that i can do and it's a matter of choosing one, first (being the operative word).

ah well, i know the choice will be plain and simple in due time. i just gotta seek the right thing(s) first.

a nite in brisbane

i finally found it.



meanwhile, my tummy's giving me shit problems (pun intended) again.

argh...

and i'm freaking out for this weekend's performance. and... my .. i dunno... future job. i dun like growing up and having to make decisions.

there're just too many 'what ifs' out there...