making memories

ta da da...it's my last day here in sg and this week has been pretty entertaining. managed to hang with my most fave gang and peeps, did my visa shit, done up some investment stuff, wakeboarded, picked up the pole extensions, did some office work even though i'm on unpaid leave (i dunno how the hell that's suppose to work out), redesigned my bridesmaid dress for elissa's wedding, caught a musical with some of them, did a lil self grooming and now, i'm all set and ready to go back home.

i've had happy times, frustrated moments, disappointing flashes, indulgent episodes and contented experiences throughout my life and seeing as to how this will be the longest stretch of time i'm gonna have away from the love ones, this is definately a new chapter. 

memories of primary school days where i was kinda fat and.. bleah... 

memories of secondary school days where i slimmed down and felt super carefree

memories of poly days where the best friends were made and carved in stone

memories of wedding planning days where i realised i really liked the business

memories of flying the skies where i lived and let live, burn and got burnt

and now... new memories and a new life waiting for me to embrace. 

darling ms howe let me listen to this song today and i fell in love with it. 

i guess memories help remind us of our fears, they add a little colour to the world and help makes life slightly easier to go on..

gees i could listen to this all day... 

home sweet home

i slept for a good 15 hours and i'm feeling sleepy again less than 8 hours after i woke up. my mum asked if i haven't in a long while and truth be told, yes.... i honestly haven't really slept a good sleep since i got to taipei. no no.. dun get me wrong.. i do sleep and all.. but uninterrupted sleep? nah... haven't smelt or tasted it.. since the girls came into my life. well, i'm not blaming them. i just sometimes wish they grow up faster and quieten down. but then again, i'm pretty sure i'll miss their cuteness and all when they grow out of it.

so it sucks to be parents.. i totally understand how it feels now. yawnz..

knowing that i'll be craving some local munching, my mum bought supper last nite. hokkien mee and satay.. and i had hainan chicken rice for dinner (breakfast and lunch) today. yums... as the saying goes.. mum knows us best. so yeap.. but as much as i agree on that, one thing's for sure- i do not miss the nagging. so nope.. moving out does not make one miss naggings... at all.

touched down last nite and msged the gang. knowing me, they all know the simpliest ways to make me feel at home (i'm not talking abt the drinking bit, more like the... "u're back?? so fast??" bits). i love these guys. haven't changed one bit.

i miss my baby and my bitches already. i dreamt that the bitches grew up and whisky had loooong shaggy hair. brandy just looked like a friendly wolf that i can sit on and walks me around. ahahaha.. and i lived by the beach.. even though, ahem... the apartment i lived in was exactly the same as the one in taiwan cept that when i open the door, instead of looking at a crappy black alley, it's the sun, sand and sea!! gosh.. i must've really been out.

sg is hooort. yay.. it's gonna be spring in tpe so i can wear my minis and stuff again.. can't wait to get my visas and driver's license settled. oh... and get the extension bit for my pole. then it's home sweet home.. either ways... it's still home sweet home..

another lazy sunday afternoon

ahhh.. it's nice to finally get a day of rest after slogging at work till 11.30pm for the past 3 nites... the event's finally over so hopefully everything will be better now.

i'm sitting at a little cafe less than 100m away from my house coz there's free internet, fresh air, sunlight for my babies and food. nice way to spend a sunday afternoon since being cooped up at home with the girls will prolly drive me nuts. peter's in calgary so i'm here to guard the fort on my own. yawns....

sometimes i feel like i'm in a bit of a shotgun situation... yes i love the girls, but when they drive me crazy, i kinda regret having them. like.. people come to taiwan and enjoy the nightlife here. the clubs, the shopping, the food and i'm stuck at home or in the office and when people ask if i wanna go out, my first concern is.. who's gonna take care of the girls.. and when i'm out...i'll think of getting home quickly coz i'm afraid of leaving them alone for too long. i dunno if i'm ready for that kinda commitment. sigh...

and this is scary coz its making me scared of the responsibilities of having to take care of someone else. what if i get scared coz this experience is so traumatising that i might be put off having dogs or kids for good. then how???

i miss the carefreeness and the lack of responsibility-ness. hah... the gang's in hanoi now and no one's online. sigh.. i'm sooo bored!!!!!!!

baby come bk quick!!!!!!!!!

okok.. i'm running out of things to say. i'm brandy's chewing bone and whisky's licking.. erm.. toy.. if only they are well enough to play with each other then i can be free of scratches. sometimes i wish i had the irresponsibile life i had back without the exploits of course... sometimes lah..

back at home with my babies...

hokay...

so... life has been pretty not too bad these days. whisky got sick and had to be under intensive care and hospitalisation for a wk. the good thing was that she actually managed to pull through coz there was technically no known cure cept for the doggy's own strength and will to fight through and build up their own immunity so... yay!!!

brandy has been both the angel and devil lah. she's such a brat, making soooo much noise at nite. once she got me so pissed off at 3am i actually cried. yea.... angry tears.. i can't even remember when was the last time i cried angry tears. but then when she's sweet she's such a darling... learning to sit and sitting without command for food... now she's learning to shake hands.. my sweet little brat darling. sigh.. what have i gotten myself into???

and nah... i'm no superwoman, far from it actually.. i'm just the mummy who feeds them when they get hungry and tell their daddy not to whack them (mostly brandy) too hard coz heart pain. he's the hero lah... from staying up to make sure they dun make noise so i can get enough sleep, to waking up to bring them for pee breaks... feeding them, taking them out for walks... training and disciplining them... i just join in the happy side. hehe.. some kind of mummy i am..

but hey, work's been tough... challenging coz of the language but overall fun. i love my job and my colleagues have been nothing but kind, understanding and patient. i think i'd have killed me if i were them, but they were super sweet. the entire office will head out for lunch together and today, they accompanied me to a medical hall coz my ulcers were so bad that my tongue looked rotten. speaking of ulcers, yea.. i have two, probably due to lack of sleep and stress. methinks i might have had it a little too easy past coupla yrs.

ah well.. time to learn, time to grow, time to live... i still believe moving out and away from home always teaches one to gain a certain type of independence that u can never get no matter how liberal or free rein ur parents give you.

i'm treasuring it.. and i'm missing home a little... ah well... the brat and the sweetheart are both asleep liao.. methinks.. ahem, i might need to sleep soon. OH GAWD!!! WHAT'S HAPPENING!!