have yourself a merry little christmas

it's nice to start work during this festive season as much as i keep going.. damn, i gotta go bk to work on christmas eve or boxing day or new yr eve and whatever not. at least i have these little holidays that i can spend with close ones around me and still get paid. oh, and it beats being overseas with a bunch of people i dun really know and dun really care about and caring only about the booze and whatever.

brandy's birthday today!!! she's one!! whiskey turned one last month!! they are growing up and so am i!! it's exciting how things are turning out now. hopefully bleak 2009 will not be THAT bleak. hmmm.... yr end means a string of bdays starting dec till feb! and it means me turning another year wiser.

ahhhhh!!!!

i should go sleep and make tomorrow a fruitful day. Merry christmas world... may all nightmares turn to dreams and dreams turn to reality.

things are looking up

my babies are back from doggie jail...
today marks the first day of my step in a slightly new career path...
the other baby has got a job offer to teach and another offer to maybe perform at st james...

hopefully the yr will end with a great start. *crosses fingers*

today, i met a nice guy...

it was something rare, something peter and i thought we'd never see... especially in sg, where everyone's just busy minding their own business... trying their very best in their little ways to stay in as low a profile as they can. yes.. people can be nice. they give way when they see us (me) walking/hobbling our way through. they stop and not honk when we take just a tad tooooo long to get into the cab and cause a line of vehicles waiting behind. the crutches and wheelchair does have good points. but i digress...

today, i (we) met a nice guy while attempting to carry a huge bag with my laptop and hugeass wedding planning book (thanks to mrs ang) and a new sound system (which we had to buy coz we blew our own system up thanks to the voltage difference in taiwan and sg). as i was struggling with the freaking heavy box, this nice dude drove by and stopped beside peter... and actually offered to drive us home (from sheng shiong which actually isn't very far but it's the thought!). so yea... very very nice guy and i totally appreciated the thoughtfulness. he wanted to help us carry it up.. cept i think i'm woman enough to do it myself.

in anycase, my point is.. there is hope.

and after talks with the girls to stay sane and not put too much pressure, methinks i've done what i can do with the jobsearch shit. i'm just gonna apply to recommendations and all accordingly and see what happens. (i even tried LTA..bwahaha... what next!?~) yes.. it's the yr end, christmas, clearing leave and holiday mood kinda really isn't the best of times for me to look for a job. so i'll try not to fret too much and enjoy whatever's left of freedom and concentrate on being nurse/pa/physiotherapist.

it's not easy.. but we have to TRY to look on the bright side, no matter how fucked up and bleak things looks.

stuck in a moment

since the last post, i've been highly constipated and about to lose hope. I know, this isn't the best time to be looking for a job, nor is it the best time to be picky about a job. yes.. i turned it down in the belief and hope that i deserve and should be getting alot more than what they offered.. so... here i am.. waiting for the next call or email that some future smart ass employer will give me.

sigh...

the day is spent online sending resumes, surfing website for suitable job openings, hospitals and doggy jail.. nothing takes my mind of the fact that i'm sitting at home everyday without any income coming my way. what's gonna happen once my savings run out? and just the thought of that makes me cringe... all the hard earned money i saved up is just disappearing slowly... yet i can't even be allowed to smoke without having to seek permission for the only most direct gratification i can have.

sigh...

i get up every morning to a disappointing empty inbox.
i go to sleep every nite after emptying a redundant inbox.

i really really really need a smoke. or a break... i need a fucking job and a teevee and a life!! thank gawd the shipment's arriving tomorrow.. i'm going crazy within these 4 walls.

gawd it's not even 8am...

And if the night runs over
And if the day wont last
And if our way should falter
Along the stony pass
Its just a moment
This time will pass