Past the pt of no return?

My bestmanfren said..."The Diana I knew last time wasn't so jaded with life, was able to make decisions, more decisive... more responsible... the Diana I knew wasn't living her life the way she is now... more.. 'Zi Ai''

Responsibility::Fault::Blame::Consequences::Cause::Effect::Shouldering responsibility::Guilt::Who::What::Why::How::Forgiveness::Truth::Infidelity::Love::Loving::
Passion::Trust::Decisions::Choices::Change::Friendship::Surprises::Friends::Guidance::
Complications::Right::Wrong::Pain::Hurt::Tears::Blindness::Dilemma::Flirt::Player::Game::
Respect::Moments::Thoughts::Dreams::Darkness::Light::Rights::Anticipation::Obligation::
Expectation::Jealousy::Giving::Relationships::Fear::Mistakes::Freedom::Defences::
Protection::Sanity::Secrets::Desire::Succumbing::Lost::Circles::Promises::Soulmate::Soul::
Selfishnes::Selflessness::Solitude::Anger::Fustration::Betrayal::Broken::Baggages::Seduction::
Magic::Chemistry::Resistance::Damaged::Tease::Fuck::Trip::High::Confusion::Happiness::
Sadness::Laughter::Heaven::Hell::Life::

In all randomness, just what on earth am I doing?

"Past the point of no return,the final threshold -what warm, unspoken secrets will we learn? Beyond the point of no return . . .

Past the point of no return, the final threshold -the bridge is crossed, so stand and watch it burn . . .We've passed the point of no return . . ."

A tribute to Only meeeee

Ah! Yikes! I just remembered I haven't wished my bestest ONLY ME "happy birthday"! Not that she's appreciate the reminder that we're of the SAME age again... oppppppsy...

Here's a tribute to my only meeeeeeeee....

Only Youuuuu... can make my dreams come true.... only youuu... can make the darkness bright... only youuu... and youuu aloneeee... lalalalalalalaaa...you're my dream come true.. my oneee.. and onlyyy... meeeeee!!! (this has gotta be the dumbest tribute ever!)

But then again, you know wat i mean.. oh i love you, you you... sweetass chick... to more good times, dumbass times and crazy times ahead! *clink clink* *MUAAKKKKZZZZ*

Methinks I'll just repeat the above in her blog.. haha...

Back to sanity, just got back from London, met up with adrian and ivan.. duh.. and along with some of the chicks i flew with... we went and caught stomp! After stomp, headed back and played drinking games. Brainless games designed at only one thing... which is to get drunk at the fastest time possible. Adrian, Ivan and myself were suppose to catch the last tube back to stanford but... haha... didn't make it to the door. Woke up to a room that looked like a mass orgy took place the nite before. But nah.. nothing of that sort happened. We are tame people.

Promised nicky to wake up early to exercise together but he was gone by the time I woke up. Geez... the rain was just too tempting and I think the fact that I didn't sleep for more than 12 hrs during my London flight back played a part. We even went karaoke after I got home. So make that... hmmm... approximately 24 hrs of no sleep.

Okay.. I gotta go get my breakfast, lunch and dinner now. More updates in a bit!!

Everybody, stay sane in the meantime. =)

Time sure heals... most things...

oh man... in my boredom of not being able to sleep and sitting in front of the computer, i actually started surfing through my blog and read my previous posts. I must say, i've come a long way and blogging has really really been theraputic for me.

Flipside... this trip down memory lane has certainly dug up feelings I've long forgotten and thoughts I can't remember having. Hmmm... *frowns* Just imagine... all that shit happened exactly one yr ago. *ouch*

Look at how things have changed. Wonder how much more will change.

Bloated

Hmmm... I just read a book on dieting and eating right and how to take care of the liver and all that and I realise... I think I do have a problem.. slight problem with my liver.

Let's see...

Abnormal Metabolism of Fats; Excessive weight gain; Inability to lose weight even while dieting; Sluggish metabolism; Protuberant abdomen (pot belly); Cellulite; Digestive Problems; Indigestion; Intolerance to alcohol; Abdominal bloating; Mood changes such as anger and irritability; Chronic Fatigue Syndrome; Coated tongue; Premenstrual syndrome more severe.

Above, CHECKED! Yikes... actually, there's LOTS more but according to the book, the ability to answer some of it means the bells, I mean, alarms should be ringing. And I thought it was just bloatedness and gastric. Time to detox!

On a lighter note, I came home from Melbourne to a pretty nice surprise! Hehe.. I have a cupboard!~ I had a cupboard but it's too small and already nicky and vivek had to flex their hugeass muscles to lift the hanger-bar back to it's original position with all my clothes still hanging. Long story short, louis kindly and patiently and most sweetly hammered his cabinets, bought a coupla bars and boxes from ikea and voila! New cupboard!~ *yay*

Okay. Time to go lie down... guess what.. my tummy's bloated and painful.. again... =(

ramblings

Been having irritating tummyaches recently, it's not funny... methinks it's too much wind in my system, which means I've either gotta fart or burp alot. What else should I do to make it less painful?? =(

Anywayz, got back from frankfurt a coupla days back and I've been nuaing my days away. As usual... am wishing that my job actually would require a little more stress... but alas... seems like I really gotta get my arse up and do something. Dammit. Been saying this for like 1 yr now and i'm still stagnant, other than my dive license.. hehe...perhaps volleyball again?

Am gonna go london mid-month and another trip to syd lined up in Nov!~ Whooopieee... time once again to meet up with my fave peeps on the other side of the world.

My tummy's too painful and i'm just too lethargic to do anything or type anymore... sigh.. i need something big to happen in my life again. (shit... be careful what you ask for)

*yikes*