end of the year posts usually mean...

it's time to evaluate 2007 and come up with unrealistic 2008 resolutions that cause people to just give up making coz it usually gets screwed within the first month.. i know mine did. sigh..

so.. looking bk at the entire year which started a teeny weeny bit shitty, i think it pretty much moved up from there. lots and lots of life changing decisions were made but for the first time in a long time, i'm actually not depressed on christmas (i was more pissed off and frustrated) and new year's day.

i often look back on past blogs, especially those written around this period of time exactly a year or two ago and compare it with this present moment. there seemed to be more similarities than differences.. hmm... that ain't so healthy no? coz doesn't it mean that a year ago, or even two years ago, the things i was whining abt now are the exactly same things i was whining abt then? which led me to think.. "damn, my life hasn't changed one bit eh?"

today i'm gonna make sure i change that.

so let's see..

i've always said i wanna try to drink less, so let's do that.
i've never said i wanted to quit smoking, so let's try that.
i've always loved a challenge and now that pole dancing's done, i'll try something else.
i've always resolved to save up so i'll keep that up.
i've always complained abt my weight but actually all i wanna do is tone up, so let's do that.

i'm having mixed feelings abt 2008. stressed by the fact that as i'm typing, my employment status is becoming more and more uncertain. ha! but i'm super excited abt going to tpe and doing something different so i guess.... bottomline.. i'm happy...

somehow something tells me everything will be okay.

merry christmas! eve!

Merry Christmas eve peeps...

due to unforeseen circumstances, i'm back in sg and spending my christmas in sg. sigh... fucked up thing was this christmas was suppose to be a surprise visit to taipei and well... we all know how much i hate standbys. this last activation really pissed me off big time. but well, lan lan so here i am. christmas eve, alone. PTUI!

anywayz, i'm quitting so whatever.

which reminds me, two weeks notice means i've got to tender my resignation on 26dec. that's two days from now. that's scary. let's hope i'll be mentally and financially ready to embark on this new journey. i realised, looking back at how my life has been, every single part of the plot has been mapped out and carried out accordingly. yes i may have had quite a lot of detours here and there but ultimately, i got what i wanted. i lived the life as a holy schmoly christian, living my life purposefully. deciding that i didn't want to be overprotected and wanting very much to learn life as it is, i literally became devil's advocate, lived wildly and freely, purposefully wanting to make as many mistakes, stir as much shit and push my body to the limits. and now, not that i've lived it, but i will be living out the normadic life that i've always wanted to try, being able to travel the world with that special someone and just... live, anywhere. let's see how that works out.

so yes... i'm already beginning to miss flying. but that said, i'm looking forward every single day to touch down in sg after my last, final flight and say goodbye to my uniform, handbag, nametag, stupid lousy quality sandals... etc. oh and the make up, and nail polish. who can forget my love hate relationship with it?

i wonder if i will cry or tear on my last flight. as i'm on my way to taipei, will i be like the passenger i saw a coupla months back wiping a tear that was just trickling down her face because she was relocating.

i can't help but wonder... "how will my life pan out from here?"

i just... wonder...

wishlist

i just went for a little window shopping with prissy-la-la this afternoon in tampines mall. sheesh... there's so many people out doing last min christmas shopping, even in tampines mall. i can't even start to imagine the masses out at orchard rd.

hokay! brilliant idea from pris, i shall save my angel some trouble and suggest a coupla items i would like to hap for this christmas. kekeke... short of being thick skinned, i'm just trying to save the poor soul from wrecking his or her brain, spending time shopping for something that i may not need or what. BUT if you've already bought something, dun worry, chances are, i'll still like it anyways. *grinz*

oh and since the birthday is round the corner, ahaha, i know... i know... there's still sel's and louis's bday FIRST... but no harm.. erm.. throwing in a few ideas lah.. teeheehee..

dear angel and nice people out there, here's my wishlist...

- organiser from popular (pris actually has a pic of it so.. erm.. can ask her to sms details. keke.. cheeeep cheeep~!)
- english-chinese electronic dictionary
- a new hp.. (i know.. i promise i'll hang it round my neck if i go drinking in future. oh, maybe mummy might handle that)
- a burberry's blue label baggie for work. (kinda long shot, eh? nvm, for my own ref)
- memory card with big enough memory for good long videos.
- oh and one looong kiss frm the bf. (hur hur.. sickening... i know..)

methinks that's it leh.

oh, okay, since we've always wanted to do like a formal sit-down dinner kinda fine-dining makan thingy, we'll do it on my bday okie? so everybody gets to dress up and look oh so gorgeous. need u guys to help come up with suggestions too.. and keep 5 jan freeee... please.

thanks thanks!! ladidaaa..

i'm psyching myself up

so fun so fun!! i received an sms from ms wu early one morning (paris time) saying that i'm somebody's santarina this christmas and i've gotta get a gift for him/her!!

at least this yr i dun have to crack my head to think of pressies to buy for almost abt 15 people, with additionals here and there, heh, and just concentrate on one person. errr.. make that two... hah!

and omg the last time i played this angel and mortal game was when i was in church!! freaking.. erm... 7 yrs ago? man i feel old but this is kinda nostalgic, so yah...

i'm just wondering how many of us are really gonna keep the... secret of who your mortal is until that day itself? teeheehee..

pardon the randomness, i'm back from paris, jet lagged and slept the entire day.

this christmas should be fun... i hope...

back in paris...

just feel like writing something today. 

i nuaed the last coupla days away, visiting val (that poor gal, hope she can ride (i mean.. walk properly) soon), eating alot of freaking cheeeeken rice, watching dvds, going for the 380 course, ktving till 6am, drinking and more drinking. and i kinda feel like my life is wasting away. 

i did do something constructive though, my resume complete with a photo is now ready to rumble both in print and web versions. yay! and i kinda got myself an interview date with this events company ceo in taiwan. yay yay!! which brings me back to the fact that quitting is gonna do me good. i need to feel the rush and stress again.. and no, rushing to finish a meal service, feeding 42 hungry passengers, making sure all of them are happy and dandy, and working in the confines of a tiny shithole with 6 other people who u bum into everytime u turn around, saying sorry a million and one times, making sure u're not rude even though you're busy as hell with colleagues asking the stupidest questions then scolding you for nothing, is not the kind of stress i need or want.

i prefer giving stress. me slavedriver... 

anyways, i'm in paris now. paris reminds me of soooo many things, people and shit. but in all, i still think it's a romantic place to be in. i guess it's nice to have someone to think about when you're somewhere different. wishing he could see this or hey.. we must do this sometime and oh.. i'll bring you here one day... but then of course the part where you start missing the person sets in and you go like.. "omg, i miss u so much!" and not being able to even chat online since we're miles and timezones apart isn't helping. faster go bk to taipei or something.  better yet, make that sg. kekeke... 

ps: if we ever have a big huge fight because i'm being unreasonably emo and pms-sy coz it mostly will just be pms and i can get very irritatingly short tempered, unreasonable (i know i already said that), emo (this too), basically... just looking for trouble, picking a fight and screwing things up, please dun ever walk away. just kiss it away, ok? and fyi, i reallly reeeallly appreciate your patience with the smoking bit. 

okay.. back to being.. ahem, not so mushy... it was one of those moments... 

ladidadida... i'm suppose to be out partying now, but some of my colleagues bailed out on me, and because we drank upon checking in which led to a pounding headache all through dinner, i'm just gonna stay in and drink evian mineral water. my head is still pounding though. omg, it's only 10pm here! wtf am i gonna do the rest of the nite?!

hokay, i just downloaded firefox, hopefully the silly hotmail thingy can work on it. i might be back to drop another post. i get bored easily.. it's like.. i'm... talking to myself. Help!! i'm flaky and peeling like hell but i no hap moisturiser.. sighh..

and the peeling goes on... au revoir!~

shark dive!!

beautiful day at capetown to begin my beautiful day with a 2 hour drive to a quint little town near dangerpoint....

...where me and my colleague jaswant had yummy toast and half boiled eggs for brekkie...

... at a nice little cottage like placed call Antique Rose. Bit like a b&b place for people who are going for an adventure with jaws...

there's the bait...

and the cage where human bait are stupidly and willingly being dipped into the water amongst our friendly white sharks...

to be continued in the next post... hur hur hur...

shark dive part 2

we donned the wet suit that was amazingly freakingly tight and uncomfortable... but at least it kept us a little warmer than the pathetic long sleeve shirt i had on...

... the weather was perfecto...

the sharkcage was lowered...

... and so were the human shark bait...

... we sighted a sharkie shark... swimming our way.. before... SWIMMING OFF!!!

and that's it. shark diving for u. 

arghhhhhh..... after suffering from unnecessary sea sickness made worst by the stupid fishy bait and the stinking seals at seal island.... we headed home... only sighting a shark's fin! fuck man.. i could've seen more at tung lok lor. 

oh.. but we saw 2 hugeass whales... 

at least... ahem.. i got a free voucher to go back and catch them silly sharks... someday. 

another week has passed...

and... i'm sitting in my living room with my mum, auntie and sister.

and guess what.. my mum suddenly said.. "diana! you're very late already" and my auntie chips in with.. "yah... you know when we were at this age, our kids were already 2 yrs old." and my sister didn't help when she went.. "i wanna get married!!"

ahem.. my mum tells me to hurry hurry up go get married then she can be more 放心。 i wonder why. and i can do whatever i want... ahem.. legally. nooooo... not that i'm doing anything illegally... kekekeke...aiyah...

it doesn't help that my auntie and mum are munching on peanuts. i miss my peanut. (wahaha.. shit, so mushy!) and no, i wasn't hinting about anything above okay? chill...

anyways, it's official.. muahaha..

and i've also decided that my last day of work is gonna be on my birthday, which is.. ahem.. 8jan and i will be tendering my resignation on boxing day, thereafter serve my 2 weeks notice and my last flight is gonna be my first airbus 380 flt to sydney. and if all goes well, the date for my taipei trip should also be on 8jan as i try to catch the last flt into taipei. say.. yay!!

so please people... STOP ASKING ME when i'm leaving.

last coupla days, weeks went by in a flash and i'm actually very happy and contented with how things are going. i was kinda stressed out wondering when i should quit, whether to leave after 13month and all but now that the roster is out, i'm glad it's all gonna work out. it's happening very quickly... hope i dun suddenly freak out though.

anywayz, i guess that week was made much easier to bear coz mr peanut made an impromptu trip to sg just to see how i was doing and to make sure i was doing okay. i really really appreciated it. REALLY. sometimes i wonder how things changed, when things changed and why things changed but whatever happened there, i'm glad it happened. talk abt being blissful. it's sickening.. haha!

but it's nice, i'm sure we all know, to be able to talk to someone who gets you and understands you without you having to say anything or explain too much. and be crazy about someone who's also crazy about you. so i'm "hhggaappy"..

ok shit, i'm grossing myself out now. haha.. excuse me while i go puke. bleahhh... *shy*

and i'm gonna join my sis and tease my dad abt his weight. kakaka...