Recharged

Good morning!!! Chirpy beginning to a new day!! Ha!!

Hokay, I just got back from Sydney yesterday, wanted to blog but my brain wasn't functioning properly and had to go sleep. Went to sleep, that was 5pm and I just got up! Woohoo... whooping 15 hours of non-stop, uninterrupted sleep... yippee!

Rite, backtrack to the weekend and my sydney trip.

I had a rather interesting weekend, er... i dunno how to elaborate but it was interesting. Saw him in Zouk for two nites in row. I had the opportunity to introduce him to louis.. haha.. aiyah, it was all so wierd. I know my friends dun think highly of him at all, but, hmm... i do still miss him. ARGH... Okay, drank from friday to sunday, yes, even sunday and i'm experiencing the most irritating thing that can happen to anyone... it's called, an outbreak. Kekek... dammit! i should drown myself and my internal organs in water... tsk tsk tsk

Went to sydney monday evening and arrived very early the next morning. Yay!!! felt kinda wierd to meet aly in syd! At least for char and the rest i've done it before... keke... I miss my part time boyfriend!! haha....

Well, actually, char has already did a summary on my trip to sydney but just to add on, hehe... i overslept. Was suppose to meet them at 11.30 for lunch so char doesn't have to rush off to school too quickly. Aly called at 11 (or was it char) and i was still happily snuggled up in my room... so i rushed up and outta the hotel and managed to get to newtown ard 12 plus, only to see char still wrapped in her towel and drying her hair... hhmmmphh..

Went out for lunch, char went to school, aly, jan and i went to campos for some coffee. I can't really remember how to spell it but it's espresso with icecream. Yummy! The espresso woke me up for a bit so when we got back to aly's place (supposedly to rest), we ended up sitting in front of the comp and taking turns to chase each other outta the toilet coz we needed to shit. By the time char got back from class (to scream at me to get outta the toilet), it was abt maybe 4? Jan went out to shop and the 3 of us slept in. Come to think of it... quite pathetic, Aly and char could hug each other to sleep.. i was hugging FHM magazine... muahahahaha....so sad!!!

Met john for dinner afterthat in town before we headed back to a pub in newtown. Drank... talk cock... took pictures and we went back to the hotel to get some early rest. Unfortunately, I couldn't sleep coz john was happily snoring away... keke.. so yep.. it's always great to go sydney but i'm always so exhausted!

Hence super sleepy when i got back, which explains why i needed to crash badly...

Hokay! gonna have to do quite a bit of errands today! Ivan's been bugging me for Warcraft stuff! I'm getting to it dude!!! relax!!! :P

Looking forward to...

Just got back from Nanjing, ancient city and one of the 4 capitals of China. Nanjing is really not as boring as what some of my friends described! I wish I had more time there coz I only had enough time to go sightseeing and enough time to buy myself two tops.

Went to the Nanjing Massacare Museum and it was... well.. solemn, creepy, emotional, enlightening and well, basically very 'ouch'. How can people be so cruel to fellow human beings. I mean, saw this picture of a pregnant woman being disembodied after being raped, little babies who haven't even had the chance to call their parents 'mummy' or 'daddy' being killed, the rest can be left to imagination and trust me, some of the things no sane human can ever imagine. Sigh... it's sad, and it's no wonder why the Japs are pretty hushed up there. (My stupid chief had to start going 'kawaii' in the middle of the tour! Kao.. never die before) I was walking and thinking to myself that I'm glad it's all over. Just hoping that this kinda war will never happen in my or our children's time. But then again, it'll probably be different kinda warfare by then.

What do I know abt war anyway?

This trip has also made me realise something that I guess I've always taken for granted. And in fact, I think most kids these days actually do too. Ha.. never imagined myself saying this but, we've taken for granted our education system and the fact that the majority of us in Singapore are bilingual, is truly something not every other country can boast about. Well, I've always hated mandarin but during this trip, I think I've done so much translation it's almost become fun to know how to speak mandarin. Kekeke.... was having a foot massage with a colleague on our first day there and this Ang Mo sat beside me. Chatted a lil, with him and the people giving us the massage and I ended up being their translator! Literally whatever he said, I'll repeat in perfect Mandarin and vice versa. She even asked me to write in her little note book certain replies to customers who they have trouble explaining things to. Quite cute, I must say, quite cute. Plus knowing me, haha.. it is an achievement!~

Took like 3.5 rolls of film! This is almost record holding but it was fun. We took so many goofy pictures, pictures of us in those Huan Zhu Ge Ge kinda gear, ok, really really pretty scenic views of Yangzhou and some other historical places.

My new team's so far so good so am hoping this will be a good year. Looking forward to move everything into Normanton... looking forward to...

Amazing Ironies

A blog's suppose to be a place where i can express my feelings without actually bothering about what people say, think or feel about what I've written. So yes, I'm gonna do just that...

Had a pretty crappy dumbass week at Johannesburg and back in sg. I mean, Joburg itself was fun... it was just slighly crappier because I lost someone, got dumped, watever u wanna call it. Reason being, I didn't call him or msg him the two nites that I was out drinking with my friends (in bali and dempsey rd) and got too drunk to do so. Well, it was a promise we made which I didn't keep and he kinda lost his trust in me.... ha! geee... not exactly used to the fact that someone actually doesn't trust me... I was usually the one with the issue.. but whatever...

Ironically, i was out having so much fun because I was really happy, happy to be with him, just blissful happy... that didn't turn out too well for me huh...

Back in sg, slept in the entire morning that I got back from my flight before rushing over to Louis's exhibition at Suntec. Anyway, got there just in time to help them pack up and saw Lou and Mel off before the rest of us headed to our various destinations. I was, for the first time, at peace when I saw Melissa. Guess that was the effect person mentioned above had on me, even though we were no longer together. (ironic huh)

Ironically, was deemed to be rude coz I didn't say 'hi' to her when I was at the exhibition. Doesn't pay to be kind, does it?

Ah whatever... just needed to rant and let it out. And it ends here.

That said, I feel that what's truly ironic, is that well, I had my doubts, we all have, had, still having, our doubts. It's just irritating to know that after our talk and after we broke up, I've realised that I was falling but my doubts and fears kept me from showing it and that drove him away. So you know wat? Take ur time and be careful with your heart... but dun take too long. Live for the moment coz at least for that moment, you were happy. And when it's gone, keep the memories but walk on knowing you've learnt something from whatever you've experienced.

I'd never exchange those past 10 days or everything else I've been through for the world.

Ha... self-consoling blogs always work for me... bleahhh!!!

It's been a while

Boy oh boy oh boy!! Last nite was AMAZING!!

By some wierd twist of fate, I actually managed to remain in sg since my bali flight. Was on standby but wasn't called up, then got taken outta my bangkok turn, put on standby but NOT called up again.. ha!! It's good... it's all good.

Well back to last nite, after such a long time, we finally met up at dempsey for Swartland Bukatrabbe. We, as in me, theresa, evan, nicky, adrian, sel, normie and two of theresa's friend CK and Sara. There were jokes, lotsa laughing and drinking and just fooling ard, just like the good ol' days... man how i miss those good old days.... I was so happy... didn't really control the alcohol intake.. sheesh... somebody gotta regulate my drinking man... if there's one thing i can almost never say no to, it's alcohol... dammit... so unhealthy!

One more week to go and i'm gonna say bye bye Pasir ris and Hallo Normanton! Since it's gonna be a friday that we're moving in, am thinking of going somewhere to partee. Zouk? Liquid rm? Somewhere lah ah...

I'm so happy because it seems like dark clouds are finally clearing up. Not just for me, but also for people around me. Guess what really matters most is that one is happy doing whatever they're doing. Sometimes the journey does seem very streneous or u know this happiness might be shortlived... but well, if the moment is worth fighting for, worth working on and worth taking that plunge for, then fight, work, and fall knowing that u bear the consequences of your own actions and that you're happy doing so.

I want everyone around me to be happy. I know I can't exactly change the world, but I guess if I can make just one person's life a little easier, maybe this euphoria will just spill over... u think? Hokay... am feeling very idealistic now and in a world that isn't a bed of roses, it might backfire. But I guess there's always no harm trying... no harm making sure that non of us get stuck in a rut or in a life of monotony and jadedness.

Random updates

Hokay, in case you're wondering, i'm still very much alive... just a little occupied recently... kekeke... Alrighty, just cooked instant noodles coz I was freaking hungry and couldn't wait till mum gets back to cook. Am just wondering how am I gonna cope living without my family. Need to make that trip down to ikea soon.

Anyways, just came back from a nightstop in Bali. My first time there but because we landed at nite and will be leaving first flight in the morning, i so wasn't prepared for the helluva nite that it turned out to be! 8 of us went down to the hotel lounge and parteed with beers and shots of B542 (which I introduced to them, and they loved it). There was a live band that reminded me very much of EIC. Speaking of which, I miss Wala... Afterwhich, 4 of us went down to this pub area and the moment we hit the dancefloor, this other crew and myself did not stop for the next 2 hours. It was wild, crazy fun and we only met each other for the first time!~ haha..

I guess the saying is very true, it really doesn't matter where you are or how long a time u get to spend there. What matters most are the people you're with. It doesn't really matter if you've known each other for years or if it's just 1 month or day. You'll know it when you click and great friendships will be formed before you even know it! That said, of course we still have to remember and cherish the old coz you know they've been there through the pits, the rain and the sunshine. Man, miss wala and dempsey... I guess things are never the same without the guys.

Back to last nite, i went back to the hotel, puked, took panadol, slept. My friend stayed over just in case I couldn't wake up... Ha.. but they were all sweet and very responsible... took care of me and all. Came back and had a slight whoosy feeling on board... ha... so much for a supposedly tame and boring night.

I am so happy!!