predictions

Welcome back sel!!!

Ouch...

It's amazing that I've actually predicted the exact medication I'll be needing. Here's why. During my self-declared bday holiday break, I actually reported sick for a very bad backache. I got two days of mc for that, some pain killers and muscle relaxant. The second time I went to see a doc to get a day off work, I cited diarrhoea and stomach pains and got some gastric pills and diarrhoea pills.

Diarrhoea and gastric pills came to use only after I got back from Karachi last week so there was no need for me to really see a doc plus I didn't need any mc anywayz...

Muscle relaxant and painkillers came to use today, after being slammed into the water for god knows how many times and now my back aches like crazy.

Am I smart or what~?

vegetarian sandwich

Today marks the end of my two days worth of shit (read: diarrhoea (haha!!)) at home after coming back from karachi. Back to work tonight and I'll be heading off to adelaide. Yeap yeap!!

I just got a new haircut!! After being coaxed into trying a new stylist because my regular hairstylist is off on tuesdays and I badly needed to chop something off yesterday, I went with Val and tadaa!! New do!! Nice do!! eehh.. ahah.. since it's much shorter than usual, it's also much lighter which resulted in a very hyper diana last nite. Here's a little short preview.

From left to right: val, cheryl, marcus, prissy-la-la and me!

As I was saying, back to work today and I'm a little worried about not being able to tie my hair up properly. But since a french twist is suppose to be easier to do with shorter hair, I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

Everybody seems to be feeling shitty about their job. Whether it's the workload, jobscope, moolah or irritating colleagues. All I have to worry about is bitchy people and making sure I look presentable. It really isn't all that bad when you look at it that way, huh? I guess every job has it's pros and cons and you that's where you weigh them to see which side's winning and whether the heavier side has any saving grace to it. Hang in there, if not, fuck it.

It really is that simple when u think about it sometimes... unfortunately, sometimes decisions are not just plain black and white eh?

*big hugs* to all my girlies and boys who are going to/looking for/escaping from the impending and ever-endearing realities of workhood.

Oh and if you're wondering about the title, that's my lunch for today. Heeeaaalthy!!

yayy!~

repeat after me...

diarrhoea is spelt:

D.I.A.R.R.H.O.E.A.

now remember it!!

finally i get confirmation on how to spell the freaking word. never could and never did know how to spell it and nobody could ever enlighten me until (surprise surprise!) i looked on the prescription label on the medication and tadaaa!!

D.I.A.R.R.H.O.E.A.
D.I.A.R.R.H.O.E.A.
D.I.A.R.R.H.O.E.A.

shut the fuck up!!!!

you know what totally makes me go crazy?? silly stupid irritating construction work going on so near me i can literally hear every single fucking nail being knocked in or whatever wall they are breaking down. URGHHHH.....

i just don't understand why can't they do it slightly later when they are more sure that most people have already woken up and gone to work. can't they start during lunch when even the laziest people (read: me) would have to wake up to search for food then they start banging unto the ceilings??? can't they let people who prefer snoozing a little (read: me) have a little more sleep!~

blardy irritating. but what choice do i have? sighh.... hokay, so i've spent the entire yesterday at home, doing my laundry and suffering from a slight diahroea and gastric. i asked for it. didn't i? so today's gonna be errands day. plus the fact that i absolutely have to get as far away as i can from the fucking banging going on upstairs.

i am well rested. too well rested. oh!! and my leave has been approved for the april dive trip, cept for the first two days where there's a problem with the leave quota. sighhh.... but that shouldn't be toooo much of a problem. worst come to worst, change flight or something.

i'm just blabbering on now coz it's not even 10!! and no pris, i was at home the entire nite, FYI... hehe..

yawnz.... arghh!~!~ shut the blardy fuck up!~

back from karachi

forget about the new year resolution. it's broken. shits... =)

anywayz, karachi really wasn't as bad as i thought. just that the entire world, except me, came back with some sort of food poisoning or flu or whatever... dammit.. why can't i just get the food poisoning bit? at least i know there's a little bit of weight i can lose!

i neeeeeeed to dance soon.... i miss the pole and the parts where my body aches.

will post pictures once my friend sends them to me coz i had to borrow their camera coz i didn't grab feefee in time and i STILL can't find my silly digicam.

it's nice to finally be at home alone and finally able to do my laundry. i still miss living by myself.

another new beginning and i'm keeping my fingers crossed and... well... we'll see how it goes.

ahhh.... there's something about men in uniform that drives me crazy! =)

anywayz, pictures from my sec school friend's wedding.

this is me and the sisters tekaning the guys by first making them carry the groom up 6 floors (they are army guys, we forgot), then yah.. goofing around lah.

this is a mixture of church and dinner pictures. once again, pictures are not mine coz i can't freaking find the sillycam. me and my emceeeee... me and my coach...

out of the blue

So here I am, sitting at the National Library at 11.45pm writing my blog. Wanted to do some research for Karachi but alas, there are no travel guides/books on Pakistan! And what the hell am I doing in town so early in the morning? Haha... oh dun ask.. it's really funny and really wierd at the same time.

Anywayz, I keep telling myself I have to slow down or make the same stupid mistake. But how do u slow down when it feels so right?

I feel like a freaking secondary school girl having a huge crush on some guy in the same school and u know those times where you sneak looks at each other and suddenly u catch the other party doing the same thing... and then there are those moments..??

haha.. dammit!!! So freaking blushing!! *shy*

Inspired

So i just got back from watching "fur", this sort-of-but-not-really-true-but-inspired-by movie of portrait photographer, who in the movie, was called Diane Arbus, played by Nicole Kidman. Nice and inspiring it was and it made me wanna pick feefee up (after a loooong while) again.

Why did I even stop taking pictures? Oh yah... coz it was heavy lugging her around. But then again, when did good things ever come easy? - if they ever come at all...? And I settled for dear old digicam - which I can't seem to find at the moment. URGH...

Anyways, as I was saying, INSPIRED.

To do the things I don't normally do, to get outta my comfort zone, out of the familiar and just live. To see things differently. To learn about people as people underneath it all. Without the make-up, the crazy hairdo, the funky accessories, the walk, the talk, the superficial. Especially without the hazy smoky air around and the blurred alcohol induced vision.

I wanna bring feefee to pakistan and I've decided to take the plunge. Ya.. literally, I've decided that for once, I'm gonna do something without the usual people around me. I'm going off-shore, live-on-board diving for a week with colleagues who, mostly, are totally strangers. And I have about 4 months to prepare for it. *crosses fingers* I'm gonna make it work.

Nothing else... matters.
Nothing else... but the ray of light broken into shards of shimmery flicker.
Nothing else... but the soft snow-light drizzle that glows only as it descents.
Nothing else... but the moment I walk beneath that tree and look up at night.
And nothing else matters.

Don't laugh. I just feel inspired tonight.

It's finally the 9th!

The year hasn't really started off that great huh?

Hopefully now that my self-implemented birthday off days are over, work will keep me busy.

Gonna be emcee for my friend's wedding this weekend. It's also the very first wedding of my own personal friend where I'm gonna be jie mei!! Yay!

Meeting another friend to discuss her wedding plans for next year.

How fun... I'm happy for them and all...but hope I dun gradually become bitter though...

The year hasn't really started off that great huh?

who is me?

a friend asked me last nite, "who exactly is the real diana and how will i know it's really diana?"

honestly, i dunno... i replied that the real diana's prolly really schizo and maybe diana doesn't even know who diana is!

so who exactly am i?

i hope i'm not just the diana who gets drunk every other day
i hope i'm not just the diana who hurts others by screwing up
i hope i'm not just the diana that smokes and drinks too much

i do hope that i'm the diana that my friends turn to when they need a shoulder to cry on
i do hope that i'm the diana that makes the world slightly more bearable for my friends
i do hope that i'm the diana that makes a difference in at least someone's life

if there's one birthday wish i could make, i'd wish for everyone to have enough strength to go through pain and shit. didn't want to wish for no more pain coz then who's gonna know what happiness means?

i'm sorry if i made you sad, angry, frustrated or hurt by my words, actions, or choices. you know i never mean to but it's just me and my super ability to screw things and people up and i'm not proud of me when that happens.

ah well... another weekend, another flight, another drink, another week, another smile, another day....

happy birthday to me...

Credits...

Biggie thank you to all who came to my quarter century old bday celebration. I hope you guys had fun!! I did!! Weeee!~!~

Special thanks to...

~ Ms Prissy-la-la and Ms Val Howe for helping me invite my guests.
~ Mr Nickyboy for booking the venue and sending me to arab st to return my uniform.
~ Mr Kwok Fai Fai for accompanying me and nickyboy to arab st and making sure I don't lose anything at Kay-tee-vee and getting me home safe.
~ Everyone else who took time off their preciously tight schedules and deadlines just to be there, even if you don't sing... heh...

I'm surprise I still haven't lost my voice.

I sang the silly Jay chou Grandmother song and cried. Hah.. so silly... but I miss my grandmama...

I'm such a sobbie these days, especially when I drink and I'm not usually like that! Suppose to just puke it off and be done with it. Urgh... dunno what's better now though... puking or crying it off? Haha..

No, it's not funny.

Pictures pictures!! I didn't bring my digicam!! Pictures pictures!!~

Trying to be positive

Hokay!! Time to be not-so-melancholic coz since this is the first post of 2007, it shall be a positive one!!

Spent silly countdown in the plane, on my crew seat coz we were taxiing to the main runway when the clock striked 12. How exciting... my colleague and I wished each other happy new yr.. and i leaned forward to one of the passengers and wished her.. "happy new yr!!" *pui*

London was great as usual and I FINALLY went to catch the Blue Man Group. It's a comedy, mime, music and visual effects all rolled into one performance and it was one helluva gig. I wun even mind going back to watch it again but... the next time might have to go on sponsorship. Heh. But it was really good and funny!!

Anywayz, we know it's never easy to stick to resolutions.. but... i'd like to try to have a healthier lifestyle!! You know... cycling (found someone who's gonna jazz up my bike for night cycling!! yay!!), wakeboarding (val... you gotta keep me going coz you know how disciplined i am), dancing (preferably not in clubs all the time but yeap... i'm finally able to do belly dancing!!)

I also wanna double the existing amount in my bank.

Lastly, I'll not say it out but i'll say i'll try my very best okie??

I'd love to say cut down drinking and smoking but let's take it slooooww... one at a time... keke..

So... positive enough?? doodidoo...